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Tuesday 30 December 2014

End Year's Note

Just when you think it can't get worse, it gets even worse!

I thought that my roughest year was 2010. Obviously I was wrong. 2014 has been tougher. HNP (Herniated Nucleus Pulposus) followed by depression and anxiety attack has driven me into sort of Freddy Kruger's world.

This year has made me step the brake-pedal longer than I wanted to. It's even forced me to back off. Okay, I don't want to be a whiny baby. I hope you've got the picture.

Today, as I am lying on my bed, thinking of days, weeks, and months I walked through this year, somehow I found that it's not all horrible dark colours inside. There came things that has made many differences to the painting.

I have two books published this year: "Hujan! Hujan! Hujaaan!" and "Bo & Kawan-Kawan di Peternakan Kakek Ars". Along with my other book "Aubrey dan The Three Musketeers", "Hujan! Hujan! Hujaaan!" will take a part in the 2015 Frankfurt Book Fair.

This year, for the very first time I felt excited about general election since I had a diamond class candidate. Mr. Joko Widodo (Governor of DKI) decided to run for president. And this down to earth and high integrated gentleman won.

Talking about Indonesian leaders, this year has given us several extra ordinary leaders who make a citizen like me proud. Basuki Tjahaja Purnama, Bu Risma (oh my! I forget her full name), Ganjar Pranowo, Anis Baswedan, Bu Susi (again, I forget the name of this Super Woman) are names that have brought back fresh air into Indonesian's government. May The Lord bless our President and his administration.

As for me myself, despite of her being tough, this year has provided me with several gifts (I can't believe I deserve).

The first is of course my baby sister. I know that she is a super kind-hearted person. Still, I am so amazed by her persistence in taking care of me. Her sacrifices have broken my heart but at the same time become my daily life-booster. Honestly, I have no idea what would I be if didn't have her by my side.

I am also so blessed with many good friends (mostly virtual world's friend since I am not able to meet those from real world) who constantly give me their support and companion. Their being there for me in my darkest time (when they didn't have to)has touched my heart so deeply. Once again, I thank God that He sent the right persons in the right time. I mention their name every time I pray my Rosary.

Best friend seems to be my gift this year.

Early this year I found a friend who then becomes the best I ever have, the one in a million. By the end of this year I feel that I become a little bit mild-tempered, less judgemental, and more forgiving. My best friend has brought the good-side out of me. In my daily struggle this angel won't let me feed my ugly negative mind. On the contrary, this saint-like person reflects tons of comfort that have put both hope and strength into my life. Buddy, I pray that God grant you your happiness!

Well, those beautiful persons I mentioned before has driven me to one powerful word: HOPE. This year has been tough. But, along with the toughness, there came HOPE. Therefore, I thank God for His 2014: for the good and bad, for happiness and sad, and all those wonderful things I have never had.



Pembatuan, December 31, 2014

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